Current mood:	I Like This Word
Current music:	"All I Have" J. Lo ft. LL Cool J

Comment Plz Since No One Does Anymore
So I realized a lot of stuff today. First off, friendz come and go and it sux and no matter how many times u tell ur friends they're putting their bf's before u isn't ever gonna get them to stop denying. Also people change and it sux cuz everone changes at different times so yay more craziness. I miss my friends. Most of the ones who I thought were my true friends left me but oh well screw them I don't need them. Baaahumbug. I also realized I need to stop trying to run my life. I'm so use to leading and being in charge of stuff, I forgot God's the one with the pen writin the chapters to my life...not me. I pushed to hard for something that because of me happened too early cuz I was impatient with God's timing and I almost made that same mistake today. Thank God I didn't. Anywayz I just got done signing my moms ex husband with my matching dna's christmas card (even tho he doesn't even deserve that). I give up on him, shoulda known I wasn't gonna be able to fix it. I thought hey never give up, u can fix this relationship he broke but nah. Dunno wut I was thinkin. I hope I never c him again cuz if I do I'll die of a panic attack or sumthin in that nature. I'm usually excited about the holidays but why be excited this year? This is our first year without my grandma here (she died in may) which is harder than words can say and my grandfathers son (my so called "dad") does nothing but have his relatives call and threaten us even tho they have no idea what happened and now u all kno why I don't believe in love and I push everything away. I don't wanna hurt anyone. I don't wanna bring anyone down and I don't want anyone to feel sorry for me. We're low on money and I can't find a job anywhere. I promise I have like looked everywhere. The holidays are always kinda depressing when u don't have someone special to share it with like a bf or sumthin but whats the point? Like I said I don't believe in love. How can someone say they love u and then hurt u till ur heart is torn up in shreds and can't be placed back together. In spite of everything tho I'm still in a pretty good mood. I guess I'm numb to it now. lol. Eh oh well. Anywayz I'm so glad christmas break has started. 2 weeks baby! This may sound sad but I'ma miss skewl cuz I love hanging out with everyone. It's awesome! We sang at the capital today. Went much better compared to when I last went there in elementry school. Our choir sounded so good and then when we sang for honors choir we sounded pretty good even tho we forgot some words. I guess it was the shape of the room. Thwre was a scary bum there tho he started whistling at us. I was kick off ur heels and run away! jk but ya I am exhausted. This week has been kinda hectic. Well about that one guy I like, I decided that I'ma let God handle that chapter if it exist. I mean think about it. You don't pick up a book read the first chapter and skip to the fifth chapter. What's the fun in that? So ya. That's about it for today. I can't believe how long this is. Sorry to bore u all. tty guys later. Luv ya! *SMOOCH*

XOXO~BRIT BRI

PS~Our lives are designed with a paintbrush in the hands of an Artist. Made that up. yay props for me...okay I'm outta here. lol.